费力地睁开眼睛已经7点半了，黑黑的屋子里没有察觉有阳光的光临。我想看看究竟

哇，好清澈的蓝天，原来阳光就在头顶上。好想去郊游，玩野了，很多人都这么说我，我都感到惊讶，自己何时也成了这样享受型的新新人类？

犹豫了半天不还是不能决定应该穿什么衣服，外面很冷，可是在办公室里却是热气冲天，丝毫没有冬天里的寒冷，这种超级明显的对比简直令人不敢想象。这个也是和人与人之间的差

别。事事皆如此。

   今天的天气很好，原来美丽总在不经意间出现。阳光洒在每个人的脸上，映照出不同的表情，有喜悦，也有没有表情的脸庞，我本想用笑脸来迎接这个美好的早晨，这个是我一贯的这作风，无论自己的处境如何，我会用笑脸来迎接每一个值得庆祝，值得用自己的笑声来感染的美好事物，不开心的事情总是有结束的时候，而自己的开心却是一直存在着，没

有必要让自己在忧郁和哀叹中度过这些美好的时光。

   冷空气吹在脸上的感觉很好，我用手摸了摸自己的脸颊，风儿在和我的头发游戏着。 去年的今天我在做什么呢？ 为了考试而在三点一线间奔波，那股拼劲现在也不知道都逃到哪儿了，现在只剩下每天碌碌无为的我。对着房顶发呆，时间就在这呆呆的眼神中流逝了，之后是叹息，时间又在叹息声中与我插肩而过。。。。。。生命的轮回就是无数时间点构成的，

浪费了这些构成生命的物质，我在浪费着自己的生命，浪费着自己~

路旁正在施工，尘土和灰尘肆无忌惮，民工的劳动换回的有辱骂，有不理解，有白眼，有不屑，等等，我的思绪在旷野里飞舞着，不受羁绊，没有任何约束 ，我还是那个我，那个喜欢独自一人走在喧闹人群中寻求心灵宁静的我，还是那个喜欢发呆的我，还是那个经常干些

莫名其妙，令人啼笑皆非的事情的我，还是那个浮想联翩傻傻的我////////

     突然耳边响起了电梯的声音，每次我都很害怕做电梯，满满的一电梯的人，空气却令人窒息，没有语言和眼神的交流，大家都在扬着头看着电梯已经是否已经到了自己的数字。

我又要开始一天的工作了。

 

很奇怪的事情，公司的网络很不稳定，突然间集体都上不了网，思绪要插上了翅膀，我想到了不久前别人问我的问题，如果是人民币，我会选择是那种，100，50，20，10还是？

我还不犹豫的说，我宁愿自己是一枚一分钱；如果是一只鸟，我会有怎样的选择呢？

我笑着说，我情愿自己是世界上最小的鸟，蜂鸟。 可是这个时候我的大脑里却是闪现着一只在天空中翱翔的雄鹰，自由自在展翅蓝天，可以上网了~~~~

The color of life

What will I be if I continue to spend such boring days and nights?

The color of life is at my disposal which I have been thinking of for so long. If I just do a good job in on my position, the scenario will be totally different or some changes will emerge.

Time is running out and I am losing the passion of being a interpreter.

No way! The life long aspiration for me is to be an interpreter……..

The intangible feeing is so strong that I can’t help thinking of quitting this job and further my leaning. The sense of responsibility plagues me lot, for my part, I should be a good employee and go to great length to make contributions to the company. However, I am not what I want to be in this company. I am not free to do what I think is right.

In all, the ability can’t be given in full display. It is not the designed world for me, let alone my further promotion.

Someone says life is a piece of blanket paper, everyone is a painter who is in charge of making the look of this paper. So what is the color my life paper? The paper is here, so it is my job to determine what I will do to th e paper~~~~

 

Another weekend is approaching.

What shall I do in this weekend? Just to be a couch potato as I did in the past?

I should say no to the past behavior and be a new I.

Today I am a member of a BBS which is a comfort to me because I can make friends and share my opinions and views with the guys with the same interests.

What’s more, I can get acquaintance with some people in the interpretation field which will contribute to my easier access to a job. Utilizationlism, you can say. I am in urgent need of some one who can serve as a guide to bring me into the interpretation world. The capability of my interpretation will be testified in the job, and my fast study is another card to win the support.

 

 

Another weekend is approaching.

What shall I do in this weekend? Just to be a couch potato as I did in the past?

I should say no to the past behavior and be a new I.

Today I am a member of a BBS which is a comfort to me because I can make friends and share my opinions and views with the guys with the same interests.

What’s more, I can get acquaintance with some people in the interpretation field which will contribute to my easier access to a job. Utilizationlism, you can say. I am in urgent need of some one who can serve as a guide to bring me into the interpretation world. The capability of my interpretation will be testified in the job, and my fast study is another card to win the support.

 

 

I am enjoying the freedom and the leisure now for there is not so much work to do.

The programs for Beijing and Xian are not daunting tasks.

What I need to do is surfing on the internet and doing some learning. The hard won opportunities and time in this company. Something wrong with my thinking now.

I am not as good as I expected a few months ago. I am determined to be an interpreter following this year. Only by taking good use of the time and relationship net formed in this year can I be what I want to be.

The time is under my control and to some extend the co-worker of me helps me do some of my job.

Thanks a lot for the idle thinking and the job

 

Depression

I was told that someone is going after fame and profit. Who is he?

That bad egg.

I need to know why it is so hard to strike a balance between what we think and what we do. What she said is really a blow, I never know he is such s bad guy.

Maybe he is not to blame. It is very common when one in the labor market.

He is selfish and seeking his own interests and profits regardless of the co-worker’s.

It reminds me of what he did in September. I was surprised at that time but I said nothing. We are predestined to be sharing the same roof and work together.

One needs friends and care when she or he is living in the world. However, he is tap into other’s interests and profits just for his purpose. What a shame~

Ok, everything good goes to him and we are the least one to attach the attraction. Let alone the bonus and praise from the top management.

I pay litter attention to those trifles and now I need to face with all those stupid asses.

An independent thinking keeps me sober minded. I will quit this job next year and continue my courses for interpretation where lies my dreams.

  Never give up the……..

I should find a way out of the depression and anger.

 

After lunch

What I did most after lunch is chatting with the friends. What a shame/

Every time I regret the lost time and life, every time I do the stupid things once and again.

Maybe it is a shelter for me right now; I take the job as an excuse to refuse the full-fledged usage of time and the access of internet.

   One complains what the other did yesterday, I am all ears`````~.

I get to know the intricate and complicated relationship among them. The driving force can be contributed to the seeking of profits for an individual.

  I am reluctant to make any comments on their trifles; I am the least to be involved in the intangible war. Everyone is fighting, for making a living, for a better life, for a dream, for inspiration, for interests, for fame, for money and what on.

  What they did and what they are going to do can be justified for the being of so many excuses. So it seems that what and who is right or wrong is a hard job.

  You are what you want to be! It works now?

It is clear that there is no short cut to success and I have to go through many twists and turns. The terrible thing is that I will lose all the fuel and power I used to have. What I am having and who I am put me into consideration, I am eagle to make changes and the willpower for me is fading.

I get lost`````

Will I be such a me all my life?

Do I still keep in mind what is my inspiration? The dream I have been seeking for?

 The remarks said by my classmate freshes my thinking. After a few months working, I nearly lose and drop all the driving force for learning and further improvement.

  Time is available for me for the time being, but what I am doing?

Time is life, I am losing the life equaling to commit suicide. That is the least thing I wish to see in my life.

Do some changes. Easier said than done. I need a decent life for my parents and my sister and brother. The salary is so litter that even I can’t afford what I need most. No one knows what I am seeking for.

Not much money, but a job with my inspirations and the knowledge I am interested in.

A great interpreter like Ms Zhu tong or just being myself. If only I had the needed money, I should have finished the courses and passed the exams.

So there is no time for me to squander. Action is in urgent need now, I keep on doing those stupid things and say sorry to the lost time and life.

What left at last may be the idle and silly I.

  The educational background and other reasons hinder the access to better jobs and opportunities. Just go ahead and keep on walking. Things will work out.

   

     在走完这段满是地雷的羊肠小道后，我们终于抵达了心中的香山水库 ，哇，我不禁被眼前的美景惊呆了。在北京这样的大都市，居然还藏有这么一块宝地。有垂柳随着清风摇曳，几片落叶也调皮地飘落在水面，谁说落花有意，流水无情？我看见的是他们的天然一体，这种美少了谁会有遗憾/

    野鸭，k说。哦，他们很小巧，一会儿就钻到水里，看不见踪影。在我的家乡就有这些精灵。果然，没一会儿工夫，他们就消失在我们这些不速之客的视野里了。

    我惊呼，我喜欢这些木头，迫不及待的踏在了这个秀气的桥上，我期待已久的感觉。抚摸着这些木头，它们也是有生命的，现在被安置在这里，我们的脚就这样踩在它们的身上，为了构筑这种整体的美。波光粼粼的湖面里倒映着我的影子，看到自己被风吹乱的头发，思绪万千，我很久都没有感受到这种无拘无束。这个水库卧在山里，好像一个避风港，此时我们都在这个避风港里面，似乎是与外世隔，看到的现代的建筑令我想起了这些木头生命被造就成小桥的意义，它们都是现代旅游的牺牲品，我们就是享受它们，给它们带来伤害的人。

   大家都在忙着拍照，是啊，这么美，不能错过的美/山上的红叶似火般的，一丛丛，一簇簇的，点缀其间 。是在秋的魔力下绽放它们的活力和积淀吗？燃烧的血液在秋的天空下格外的显眼，我们折服了/

   在路上个每个瞬间都是一种美，与驴友们谈笑风声，共享着学习时，工作时的种种感受，畅谈自己的理想，发泄心中的不满``` ``` 好像我们已经不受任何事物的羁绊，完全脱离了现实社会，这就是我们所寻求的美。

   K说：看山下都是一排排的房子，房地产公司的杰作了，我感慨，这么多的房子，为何``` ``` 。没有说出下一句。K笑着说：这么多的房子，为何没有我的家，我笑笑~

  旅途在进行中，山路崎岖，好像比家乡的山路要陡峭些，或许我很久都没有走这样的路，现在已经有点不习惯了/突然我们到达了一个小山顶，一块很平坦的地方出现在我们的眼前，另类的美-防火道。我不禁感叹人类的伟大，这样的山上，需要多少的汗水和劳动才能筑就这样的道路，更何况长城等。

  领队老默很有责任心，我们新驴也不用害怕会走丢。他又开始点名了，这个环节很搞笑，大家可以听到很多想都想不到的名字，每喊一个，大家都可乐一次，难怪人类一思考，上帝就发笑。笑声在山上回荡着，也在我的心里保存着，人生的美也在积累着，沉淀着，我的思绪飞舞着。

   世上并没有路。走的人多了，也就成了路。我们走在前人走出的路上，黄色 淡绿色，金色，红色的落叶铺满了地面，双脚都有点不忍踩过这些精灵般的生命，他们应该还有生命的灵气吧////两旁的树枝调皮地扯着我们的衣服，难道是在和我们诉说着什么吗？

   本来今天的行程没有香山水库，老默的精彩描述使我们急切的希望看到庐山真面目。加油吧，同学们！地雷，K说，小心地雷，不过还好是马儿的地雷，K真的很幽默，我们看到一处风景绝美的地方，他拿出宝贝来记录下这一刻，我等着他拍完，他说：在这留个影吧，否则多可惜，我一看驴友们早已在另外一个山坡上，算了，去水库拍吧```````

   终于等到了期盼已久的旅行，尽管是个短途的香山游，却留下了深刻的记忆。
也不知道有多久没有与大自然如此亲密的接触了，当我登上山峰的一刹那，俯瞰着周围的景色，我忽然觉得自己是如此的浪费着大好时光，早就应该走进大自然的怀抱，感受她的魅力。为何以前都在屋子里浪费这迷人的秋色？
    一群素不相识的驴聚在一起，浩浩荡荡的就开始了征途，一路上偶尔看见一些很有家乡味道的街道和建筑，便不由自主地想起了家乡的山水景色。周六的风很大，我们都吃了满嘴的沙子，我这个装备最差的家伙居然还能队伍走在一起，没有遇到任何困难，真的另我大吃一惊。北京的冬天临近了，大伙都将自己带来的设备全部派上用场， 走到法海寺的时候有几头驴说饿了，大家在领对报完名后就散坐在寺前的台阶上开始大快朵颐，好不爽快啊~合影的时候很滑稽，大家坐在每个角落 ，结果留下了这么个奇怪的照片，很有创意哦。
    老默说今天新驴很多，所以难度系数很小，最高点可能也只有500米，大跌眼镜，这不是小看我们这些新驴吗？为了证明我们的实力，我们一直走在队伍的最前面，免得落下拖油瓶的罪名，嘿嘿，有个驴尽然刻意的增加难度，独自去翻越一个陡峭的山坡~~`果然很符合他本人给我们留下的印象。
    此时，我的脚指头有点痛了，爬上山顶的时候，一种成就感油然心生，红叶似火，看苍穹，顶着风，好想自己是空气，是一切能融入大自然的生物，是飞翔着的。。。。。。

        有时不知道为什么会情不自禁的回忆过去，想到儿时的疯疯癫癫，无拘无束，与好友一起在山野之中感受大自然，糊里糊涂的就开始与书本打交道，谁知玩性不改，从来都没有想过学习或则与学习有关的事情，初中，也许已经有点学习的意识了，因为喜欢漂亮的英语老师和对英语的仰望，居然一发不可收拾的恋上了英语，我自己都很吃惊。考试并不是只有英语一科，结果就很凄惨的进了高中，之后就步入了大学生的行列，来到了倾心已久的北京。。。。。

   既然有自己无能为力的事情，为何不让自己放松点呢？

我要去大自然，我要发泄心中的郁闷，将万千烦恼抛到外太空。。。

无数次对自己说，一切都有解决的方法，这个过程很漫长， 也是无法预料的/

生命的美也应该有美好的心情来装扮/////